Confessions of a Struggling (Normal) Parson – Part 1

Don’t let the title of this post fool you. Let me explain. The word struggle isn’t necessarily a “bad” thing, though some might interpret it as such. I think all ministers struggle. Some might appear to have it more together than others, but I’ve never met one who doesn’t often walk the valley road David describes in Psalm 23. Walking a trail through the valley of shaded death, while at times unpleasant is a picture of true intimacy with God. The journeyman doesn’t fear (for God is with him equipped with a rod and staff). It’s a picture of dependence, trust, and presence.

Ministry, as in life, has its moments of discouragement and disappointments (and blessings too). It’s too easy to become distracted by the frustrations, regrets, and unrealized expectations. If I’m not careful, these become my focus. Spiritual health requires a realignment of the view. One’s sight must focus on Jesus. I must keep Him in view at all times.

In ministry, many “things” vie for attention whether they be people, programs, or seemingly good causes. Things when given too much attention can steal your affections and passions. This is a most peculiar vocation. One is called. The calling embedded by God; there’s nothing else one can do. It’s not because you didn’t try, but because you can’t. For only will you discover true peace in the pursuit of the call that God has placed on your life. I’ve tried otherwise, only to discover the miserableness of soul. You must live out this call sustained by the strength that God provides. If you don’t, you won’t survive. My reason for life, the purpose of my existence is found in Him – obedient to the call. This relationship with Christ is the most important relationship one will ever have.

Be on guard protecting your heart, mind, and soul. Don’t let anything other than Christ captivate your being. Only Jesus is worthy of your total affection. He is the only one; Jesus I love you and desire you more than life itself. Jesus, you are my redeemer, forgiver, strength, purpose, resource, protection, provider, savior, liberator, wisdom, and life. I find my anchor in you – Jesus.